Ledger of Life.

This afternoon I was looking at my utility bill and scanning the "budget balance."  It drew me up short and made me wonder, What is my budget balance with God?  Am I coming up short and in the "red" or I am in the "black" and doing just fine by my own estimation?  Or do I kind of "cheat" the auditor by giving what I must, but not giving as much I am capable of giving or sharing?  This is a kind of gray area for so many of us that claim to be Christians.  I have always considered this little blog as my feeble effort of giving and sharing, but now I wonder if it is enough.

True, that I do things that no one knows about;  And I seldom speak of.  I was taught not to "blow my own horn."  I try very hard to do my "good works" in silence and be "unknown."  Actions speak louder than words and we teach one another and "do" by being an  example, in the Lord.  Sometimes...or often...I fail.  Often I wish for credit where no credit is due.  My right hands wants to know what my other hand is doing.  Then I stop and think; No one really needs to know what I do or what my debit is to God, other than God Himself, the big AUDITOR; you know the One; the One who is weighing out our deeds and actions and keeping the books.  I wonder what is in my little ledger of life.

"BE SINCERE, TRUTHFUL, HONEST

 AND FAIR TO ALL,

BE THE MASTER OF YOUR PASSIONS

AND EMOTIONS;

BE INTENT ON DOING GOD'S WILL;

PRESERVE A CLEAR CONSCIENCE;

THEN YOU WILL HAVE PEACE

WITH GOD AND MAN."

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"I FEEL WITHIN ME

A PEACE ABOVE

ALL EARTHLY DIGNITIES,

A STILL AND QUITE

 CONSCIENCE."

from Shakespeare

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Faith in God is our beacon light

in the storms of life,

our strength and consolation

in the greatest of trails.

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unknown author

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This day is done.  I have never, ever equated myself as perfect, esp. in the eyes of the One who sees all and what we are and what is in our-my heart and spirit.  Only God-Jesus is a perfection that we try to imitate.  We are only human.  We can only try.  If sometimes I trip over my own shoelaces, well I guess I didn't tie them well.  "Forgive us our Sins" and please pick me up, set me on my feet, dust me off so that I can try again.

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