VERACITY OF SELF

CELTIC  IRISH CROSS

For some reason this has been rolling around in my head since last night.  It is about the veracity of self.  I know I have touched on this before, but it just won't let me go and keeps rambling through my thoughts.

When I speak of veracity of self I am thinking of knowing one's self.  I think we can never truly know ourselves because there are many layers in our deep wells of id or personalities. We know of the first three; only God know all the rest of our subtleties. We go through life trying to define ourselves and  who we are and what, to others, but not to ourselves or God.

Again I will say that we have three layers that we are aware, and semi-aware of.  There is our exterior selves that we present on the usually daily regimen of our lives.  Then there is that sneaky-devil self that we try to hide and keep under cover the best we can.  This is the personality that can creep out from under the rocks of meanness, cruelty, selfishness, jaulosness, wanton behavior and other petty traits that reside just below the surface of our face or skin.  We know that there is also somewhere a spark of spirituality that is waiting to ignite and flame into light in most of us, if not all of us. That layer of veracity is just waiting for a match to set our souls or spirits ablaze.  It is all the little substrates that keep the fire from burning.

I think that we all thirst and hunger for the fire inside to burn away the layers of punk and debre' that holds most of us back from who we could truly be and want to be.  There are exceptions to this desire to be inclusive to the Spirit.  Call it what you may; some call it Satin or the devil or evil spirits that hinders our journey to a higher self.

I personally would like to peel away all the layers of self and be a better person, as would most of us, I think.  I don't know why these thoughts keep rattling around in my somewhat empty noggin, but they do.

I did get to the store and started stocking up a little.  I didn't overdue it.  After all, I have to carry it, unload it, find a place to put it, and do a mental inventory of it.  I will go back to the store again, but the store was crowded because everyone else was stocking up as well.  Some were buying large amount of sugar.  I have sugar and don't really use a lot of it, so I passed it up.   I guess I will wait 'til Monday to go back and get a few more things.  I really don't need a lot.

And I was very good about my diet, too.  I didn't go out to eat after mass, but the temptation was there.

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THE PROMISES

OF THE LORD

ARE SURE,

LIKE TRIED

SILVER,

FREED

FROM DROSS,

SEVENFOLD

REFINED.

Psalm 11: vs. 7

If we are aware of ourselves and our many limitations, then we will try to refine ourselves like the silver that has been been through fire seven times and all the impurities found and strained away.  Most of us are not that cognate of the need to go through the process of fire, yet there are many that do on a daily basis, often without choice.  Most of us, I included, just shuffle along, kicking the can down the road and thinking, there is always tomorrow.  I'll change tomorrow.  What if tomorrow never comes?

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